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Last night was hard, I’m pretty sure I had a emotional breakdown
Awww why? What happened?
Something set me off into overthinking and self depreciation and I saw everything bad about myself and it was horrid…
:(( more than half of that stuff is probably wrong and inaccurate dude. For all the bad you saw, try to think of at least one good to counter it. If you can’t, think of how someone else would counter it.
That’s an excersize that can help sometimes, give it a try.
I can’t think of anything go tho rn…
tell me then and I’ll disprove.
But seriously, try to list at least 5 good things about yourself.
I’ll do my best to help but if it’s this bad, you really may wanna think about getting a professional… I’m not one to recommend it cuz I’m personally not a fan but it gets results for most and it’s definitely better than anything I or another leader can do. Like i said in my long post, there’s only so much we can do, even with all of our experiences.
I’m obviously gonna help and keep talking to you because you’re my friend, but if it doesn’t get better, you may wanna consider it, just saying
My parents won’t support that… but I feel like I’m worthless and don’t deserve anything, I feel alone with how I feel, I feel like no-one will help me irl
You aren’t worthless and you deserve a lot dude. You’re not the only one that feels like that, that’s how I feel most of the time, and I know others that feel the same. If that helps.
Poeple will help irl if you ask and talk to them. They can’t help if they don’t know there’s a problem or what’s going on
I just hope school will help, but it’s hard for my mess of a mind to accept that people accept me
We accept you, MC, and we care
I feel like I don’t deserve it tho
You do deserve it. You’re a human that’s done nothing wrong. You haven’t done anything to not deserve it. We’re all human and at the end of the day, we’re all mad each of the same thing. Inside, we’re all essentially the same. And we all deserve our basic rights; those include love and acceptance.
Even if you’ve done something seriously bad, you still deserve those basic rights. We as humans owe it to eachother to respect those rights, and in turn, respect those rights and give them all they entail. That means accepting you and caring.
Remember my quote? “What’s done is done. What you’re gonna do next is all that matter”? It’s about second chances, and I give everyone one, no matter what you’ve done. I’ll still make an effort, because I strongly believe that everyone should get one, just like that everyone should get those basic things.
So in my eyes, you deserve this from everyone, just for your basic existence. Now, knowing you, you’re really awesome dude. You’re kind, caring, sweet, smart and a billion other things. Above all, you’re a genuinely good person. For that, you deserve more than just acceptance and basic care.
So accept it
I’ll try… It’s hard to do when I’ve gone through what I have, not just the past few weeks, but my entire life… I’ve been bullied most of my life, beaten down, and I’ve tried to hide my pain, but it’s hard now… I’m feeling everything I should have earlier in life…
i get it. More than you think I do. If you wanna tell me specifics ,i can offer advice I guess.
BuIIies do what they do because they feel bad about themselves, and project their feelings about themselves out to their vîctims. So just know that whatev they said or did wasn’t meant for you, it was for them and a projection of how they feel about themselves.
Get back up. Stand up for yourself. Don’t let them beàt you down. Fîght back.
Find an outlet. Hiding pain never ends well. Trust me, I’d know. bitter laugh. But hey, at least you’re feeling. Find a way to channel out the pain in a healthy way.
Too many feelings can be overwhelming, and that’s why outlets are necessary and work so well
The thing is, it was 4 years ago… and I can’t seem to find a way to outlet… I’m such a mess
you aren’t a mess.
What are some things you like doing? What are things that make you happy?
I like using my sword, coding, drawing, but I lack motivation to do these things, and if I do things on my own I put myself down even more… I try to talk to people but I fail
if it makes you happy, it shouldn’t be motivation enough… you seriously probably should get a professional…
How do you find yourself putting yourself down even more? Why do you fail at talking to people? How do the convos normally go? Why do you think this is?
I just cant keep a conversation going… Some people don’t reply, some cut me out of their lives… I’ve really got to find a way to calm myself down…
thats a start I guess. If you answer the other questions, I can give you specific advice
I’m just alone and my mind reminds me of things and says I’m worthless…
I don’t know…
thought we’d already established that you’re not alone or worthless
I don’t care how hard it may be to get it, but find a way to get professional help. Seriously. I really think you may need it MC. I’m sorry and i h.a.t.e to say it, but I really think that may be best.
You’re kinda shutting me out and if I don’t know what’s going on, I can’t help. No matter how much I want to or try , I can’t. And there’s stuff you cant tell me because we don’t know eachother irl. That’s stuff you can tell people on helpIines or irl. So they’ll know what’s wrong and can actually fix it.
There are people you can call/text 24/7 and websites you can go to. Try to sneak on one of them during school or something.
The best I can do is offer advice from personal experience, and i really don’t think that’s helping. I’m sorry but there’s really only so much I can do.
I’m still gonna be here for you and be a friend, but if you’re not getting better and this keeps going on, please get actual help or something.
I’m sorry… Idk what’s going on either… and the thing is, I don’t open up to just anyone… I really have to know them to open up to them
people will understand. Go to one of those texting helpline thingis and explain that you need to talk but need to really get to know them first. They’ll take the time to go through that process and then they can help
Don’t be sorry, I know how hard it is. And I honestly get you and what you’re feeling. You probably don’t believe that, but I do. And trust me on this. It’s hard, but it’ll be worth it. You’re strong enough to do this and you’ll pull though.
But you need to make an effort and take those first steps.
I’ll try… I just don’t feel comfortable tho… I’ll try. I do believe you fear, and you have helped a lot, it means a lot to me. Imma take a quick break after you reply, try to calm myself down a bit
youve gotta leave your comfort zone eventually, and this is as good a reason as any. Better, actually, because the longer this goes on, the worse and harder it gets. Like taking off a bandaid, yank it off immediately, even if it hurts. Short term páin is better than long term.
I’m glad I could help, even tho you probably h8 me now lol. It’s not easy to hear someone, especially a friend, tell you something like that (that you need help)
Go cool down, and I’m here if you need anything else or even just wanna talk :))
Nah I don’t hate you, I have no reason to. I’ll talk to you later, imma get off for a bit
Cya later, and I hope you feel better