So, the title is kind of a lie.
My experience on the forum has been kinda fun, sometimes. But far more then it’s been interesting, it’s been ruining. I don’t think the forum has transformed me into a very good person. I don’t really know how to explain it all, how I’m so sure of this transformation. I just know that I’m harsher and more unhappy and hate myself much, much more. I just feel like everyone has a part… but me.
Some of you will probably try to convince me to stay. It’ll be a nice effort, but I’m leaving no matter what, and it’s because I’ve learned the truth of it all:
The forum is dumb.
The forum is really heccin dumb.
We’ve tranformed it and twisted it out of shape and our community is now split into people who believe they’re better and people who believe they’re worse. I’ve been both. We ********love each other, but hate the outside world. We’re surrounded by barbed wire. We’re angry and express it in memes. We’d rather fight for justice then be a good frikin person.
If you think this is aimed at you, well, you’re welcome to think so.
I have good memories that I associate with the hopscotch forum. Plenty of them. And if I never had fun here, and if I hadn’t made friends here, I wouldn’t have stayed. But the forum is bad for me. It’s really, really bad.
Contact me via insta, bros. I’m @jess_mega_milk, or @ouatlsk.
This won’t end the way you think it will. I’m not happy, I’m not sad, I’m not anything. I’m just disappointed, because a lot of the people I idolized were so easily swayed into thinking I was lousy, despite having experiences w/ me.
Have a good life.
ALSO: @Holly_Aarmau the Aphmau Fan Club is now yours to run. Use my tag list as often as you want. You’re welcome.
To all of you not mentioned: I don’t hate you. I definitely don’t hate you. My feelings are complicated and I can’t explain why without sounding like a total lil fool. I’m complicated. My reasoning is complicated, and a lil weird. I still love you. I could be jealous of you I could be… eh.