What I did last night was really immature. I was actually really sad because of something that happened in real life, my grandpa passed away. Anyways, it got me all worked up, and I wanted to say I'm sorry to @Rainboom and @tankt2016 for the mean things I said. I'll remember for next time to stay off the forum when I'm upset.
And I'm really sorry. One thing did come out of last night, which was I found out I wasn't alone, and there there are other people who feel the same way, which really reassures me.
Anyways, I really hope everyone can forgive me and I can move on from the past.