Hey, on the bright side, at least yours is predictable…mine comes and goes as it pleases.
Well, that sounds like literally being torn. The good news is, God never said you had to hold it together. It’s hard to learn to realize that if you fall apart on God, He will help put the pieces back together if you ask Him and allow Him. I struggle sometimes trying to keep my emotions from completely taking over me. I fall apart a lot, and most of the time, I find myself trying to nose five and catch the pieces of my taped up heart before they hit the floor. But every time I try to stop one, I either fail at stopping or another part of my emotions starts to crumble. Just yesterday, I was trying to hold it together. But there comes a time that we have to have complete faith in God and none in ourselves. “That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”-2 Corinthians 12:10 When I am weak, broken, stressed, caving in, that is when God will take the pieces and give us His strength. But He can’t take the pieces if we’re over here sulking over our problems and crying about how we can’t take it. We weren’t made to be able to take it without His help. Yeah, I still have my rough times and yes, I’ve still got much to learn about my faith. But I’ve got to start somewhere, and that somewhere may as well be right here by just handing over the broken, hurt, urges, and everything else to God and allowing Him to put the broken pieces back together. He already sees healing beyond belief even when all we can see is broken beyond repair.
Instead of trying to get your mind off of it, start by setting your mind on the fact that your citizenship is in heaven
Ily, I’ll be praying fo you, and I mean it. And I’ve seen God walk you through so much already. I know you can make it though this with His help. Kinda reminds me of Catt’s favorite verse.
This is way longer than intended, but that’s because I had to let loose my emotions to some human being…and why not now. But if anything looked really weird in this post or sounded redundant, please excuse it bc I’m tired.
On an ending note, go listen to this song that had me in sobs last night. Pay attention to the lyrics: